2016 was a low year for me. I felt the undercurrent of apathy moving with me as I went about my days. I could not quantify it, nor find the marker of its origin; it simply was the black dog that skulked in the shadows of my path, following my steps, letting itself be seen in glimpses. Apathy, ambivalence and a smidge of boredom … yup, that about sums it up.
Who wants another year of that??!! Determined NOT to have a repeat performance of that act, I turn to dance, art and my gurus to address these feelings, tap into them, show them up, examine them a little.
Eckhart Tolle talks of three modalities (energy frequencies) in which to align your life [The Three Modalities of Awakened Doing, A New Earth]. They are Acceptance, Enjoyment and Enthusiasm.
ACCEPTANCE: whatever you cannot enjoy doing, you can at least accept that this is what you have to do. Acceptance means: For now, this is what this situation, this moment, requires me to do, and so I do it willingly… I am at peace.
ENJOYMENT: joy does not come from what you do, it flows into what you do. You can enjoy any activity in which you are fully present, experiencing the joy of Being. Find the joy of Being in what you are doing in this present moment, without wanting to achieve or become anything through that activity.
ENTHUSIASM: means there is a deep enjoyment in what you do plus the added element of a goal or a vision that you work toward… Enthusiasm knows where it is going, but at the same time, it is deeply at one with the present moment, the source of its aliveness, its joy, and its power.
Each of these modalities represents a certain vibrational frequency of consciousness. Vigilance is needed to make sure that one of them operates whenever you are engaged in doing anything at all – from the most simple task to the most complex. The modality may change during the course of a day, or one may be dominant during a certain stage in your life.
Through dance and art I awaken to how I am Being. And as I commence the journey of 2017 I pledge to awakened Doing: that my actions in this present moment come from a place of acceptance, enjoyment or enthusiasm. I like that.